31/10/03
my costume was wide enough but
ridiculously long
like slender man
if he was all
flaccid-pant-leg
and not
u know
\ slender
or
\ a man
when you grow up fat u learn to adapt to
make urself small to be invisible
but u just want to have fun
/ are you sure you need that many
i take my hand back from the pumpkin that’s all
disembowelled all plastic
all grimace
the motion-censored witch cackles behind me
i get given two apples at the next house
and i wish i went as a ghost
31/10/10
both our mums say we’re almost
too old to trick or treat
so we gotta
make the most of it
we want
free lollies
we go as an angel and a devil bc we’re best friends
i’m the angel ofc
i go to a catholic school and i am too
scared to break any rules
our spaghetti straps
feel scandalous and i feel the
way my body moves in this costume in
excruciating detail
i compare myself to her
she moves in a way i
will not let myself
move
later that night i
hold hands with a cute boy
who tells me how pretty my face is
i blush and he walks me home
the next day he texts to ask if i think
she would go out with him
lol
31/10/21
finally
the time has come
i will be slutty
i will be so very slutty
everyone will hit on me and
that girl who has been flirting with me all night
when i ask to kiss her
she will definitely not reject me
she will definitely not say that
she has a boyfriend i promise
i will be a slutty witch with a tight
slutty dress that shows off my big slutty stomach
and my big slutty tits and i will smile
bc baby it’s halloween and i can be anything
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