forgetting

you were all over me
like glitter.
I don’t know how long
it took me to remove
every last suffocating
piece of you.
my nights are dedicated
to texting you back,
acting like
i’m not trying
my very hardest
to let you go.
you’re cruel
and you don’t realise.
i laughed
when you hurt others
not knowing
it’d be me next.
friendship pays more
than love
so this took more
than it gave.
you clung to me,
choked me from
the inside.
now the glitter
in my pockets
won’t come out
in the wash.
what can I do?

Featured photo by S L on Unsplash.