i am replying to work emails while listening to the doom soundtrack when my frnd sends me edit of adam driver saying: every day i wake up (!) then punching the wall like i did at 16 so i laugh react & send back a video of ducks waddling under a rainbow he replies smth like: wholemeal he figures i am telling him i’m happy we drop in the battle royale speedrun getting called slurs i choose the enby legend i am on my phone between rounds to avoid spicy thoughts assassination in haiti new tyler album thristraps i message another frnd a vid from the infinite scrolling app did u kno this is how carrots are harvested? do u have any idea how much goes into tht depression meal typing on the mechanical keyboard is therapeutic larping as a white collar working who might send enough 9pm emails to buy a house in the suburbs i alt tab b/t data collection services targeted ads for face masks cute pics of cats warm in the soothing embrace of the social internet check out gay fashion on the blogsite open an email from a political party donate to a land occupation i fall into a wiki hole abt the windows xp wallpaper bliss more than a billion ppl have seen tht image u could say: the peak of humanity a time when things were better but maybe i was just young it makes me remember playing the us military propaganda game in the heat of the gfc 1 v 1s late into the night the positive affirmations for a generation of boys: we’ll get em next time we’ll learn how to put one foot right in front of the other working everyday for the next 40 smth yrs i open word to write a poem abt cows who am i kidding i’ve worked on a farm i buy my breakfast bars in plastic packaging i wish we could back to late night msn chats instead of logging off @10pm to get sleep for work i play my fav game how far into this article abt a 21yo homeowner will it be until they mention the interest-free loan from parents i think about floppy disks how to teach kids abt data retrieval tomorrow my gpu is getting warmer desperately trying to thaw my rotting heritage home i message a grandparent flick thru dating profiles which say acab i think i mean i wonder how many ppl are playing this game rn how many are tired how many are happy in nice homes w loving families the person who shoots me in the face do they look at the stars the way i do do they feel the tiredness creeping into their bones the person who loots my dead body do they care abt the way the sun shines on the water in the morning do they also look at it while driving dangerously distracted by the beauty of the world do they stop to take a pic even tho it will make them late
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